Sunday, July 22, 2012

Home visits and Braxton Hicks

I am really not too good at this whole keeping updated on the blog... I guess it's time to try to fix that. We are in the home stretch and my little man can make his appearance at any time...nervous? A little; Excited? Absolutely; Prepared? NO!

We have been struggling to figure out a good arrangement for all of our things in the house, as we have a small house, and too many things going on. Previously, our 2nd bedroom had been my art studio and office... then it morphed into the "nurfice" but it's really hard to keep things organized when my normal crafting space has been taken over by diapers, toys and infant clothing. To add to the shuffle, the desktop computer we have is heating up the room beyond safety and comfort, so we need to find it a new home in the house.

Beyond the tragedies of a )slightly) OCD mother to be nesting like crazy, I have been working my way through the early stages of labor. I never realized how unsure I'd be of the difference between Braxton Hicks (practice contractions, that move the baby into position, and start opening the cervix) and real contractions. Since  Connor can make his way into the world at any time, I have been carrying around a notebook, and recording what time each contraction is, and trying to figure out if it's real or not. It's driving me nuts!

Medical update: As of July 18, 2012, I was 1 cm dilated, and 80% effaced...getting close! And Connor is favoring my right side for all his kicks!

To distract me, and help me along in this new adventure as a first time mom, we were accepted into a great local program called Healthy Families of the High Desert. They are a group of ladies that come around to visit with first time families, and help them find a routine, set goals for milestones, and help teach the baby the things he needs to reach those milestones. They spend and hour or so with the families each week for the 1st 6 months, and then break it down to every 2 weeks for a few months and every month for the next few months, until you feel comfortable with everything. They provide companionship, and an ear to speak to, and they bring you little things for your baby, and for you. They help with paperwork, and such relating to the baby and their health, including insurance applications, medical forms, living assistance files, etc.

Our home visit representative is named Candi, she has a couple kids of her own, and is bright and cheery! (She also adores my crocheted hedgehogs!) We have another doctors appt, and another home visit with Candi on the 27th of this month. I am looking forward to it!

Thursday, November 3, 2011

5 Days Past AF....

But no BFP in sight.....

Disappointed, frustrated, depressed, hoping for a miracle...

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Could it be? we will become 3?

So, it comes down to I am 3, going on 4 days past my expected period... and I went to the $tree to get a pregnancy test... Came home to take it, and it's faulty... no reading, no Positive or Negative, just nothing! Super frustrated, guess I'll have to go again tomorrow.

Saturday, September 24, 2011

What in the world happened 8-9 months ago?!?!

What in the world happened 8-9 months ago?!?!

It seems as if all of my friends are having babies! Thursday, I went to a baby shower for a friend, who is expecting her first child. His name will be Zander, and she and the father are SO excited. More than just excited for the baby, too. For the last 10 weeks, she has been on bedrest, and Zander has another estimated 3 weeks to go!

The shower went great, lots of fun gifts that little Zander will need.

I came home and got online, and the 1st post on my Facebook? Congratulations Renee, welcome baby Olivia! Really....? Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful for their health, and their family. I am happy for them, I really am, but really? Both of those pregnancies were accidental! Only one of the families is a married couple, and the other was not from a dedicated long-term relationship...until they found out they were pregnant.

I am sure that both of these new babies will grow up strong and healthy, I know both of the mothers on a very personal friendship level. I just hate that I am married, nearly graduated from college, and trying, so very hard...and nothing.

These girls are, well... they are. The pregnancies are from bad decision making. And this frustrates me!

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Maternity clothes

Today, I was "window shopping" for new school clothes. I found that I have a very hard time taking today's "popular" fashions seriously, they drive me NUTS!

One shirt is too revealing, another is too tight (even in an xl) the pants are sized small, so my waist that hasnt changed for over a year has gone from standard size 11-16 in the same style pants. I really just HATE clothes shopping... but I find that I have to do it...

Another thing I have noticed, whether or not anyone likes it, I like maternity clothing.... long past are the days of moomoos and gaudy tent dresses to hide your bump! Now moms want to be gorgeous, talented, confident, proud baby incubators!

I think from now on, I will do my normal clothes shopping at Motherhood Maternity! I am a slightly bigger girl to begin with, and maternity clothes hide my chub well, then when I am pregnant (hopefully soon!) I will already have a FAB maternity wardrobe! And I don't have to stress about getting "back to my pre-pregnancy clothes"...

Check out these ADORABLE Tunics!!!

Short Sleeve Scoop Neck Crochet Detail Maternity Shirt

Short Sleeve Deep V-neck Twist Neck Detail Maternity Tunic

Sleeveless Deep V-neck Empire Waist Maternity Tunic

Short Sleeve Faux Wrap Maternity Capri Pantset

Sleeveless Tie Front Maternity Capri Pantset

Sleeveless Screen Print Maternity Short Set

Sleeveless Tie Detail Maternity Short Set

Now, all of these are fairly well priced. Shopping at the end of a season gets you great deals. This is a lot of their stuff (Motherhood Maternity) that is from spring and summer, they are clearancing it out to make room for Winter. Even though these are summery outfits, they would still be cute paired with stockings, or some comfy jeans and high over-the-pant boots, or even (fashion hauntings) a cute colorful pair of leg warmers over some soft and comfy ballet style flats! You could try it with a cozy scarf, or a light open front knit jacket. 

Just a thought! 


Saturday, September 3, 2011

Another devastation, BFN getting harder to take.

Each month, I seem to be showing more and more signs and symptoms of pregnancy. Each month, I hold out for 10-15 days after ovulation to take the test, and each month I wait, bated breath, for a double line.

This month, I had period-like bleeding for 1 day on 12DPO, it was finished by 13DPO, and I thought it must be implantation bleeding, it is the only thing that makes sense... took the test on the day AF was due, and NOTHING, BFN.....

Not wanting to show my disappointment, I continued my day as if nothing was wrong, which in all honesty, nothing is wrong... it's still painful. And I don't think hubby fully understands my frustration. He shrugs it off like it shouldn't matter. He isn't the one that is feeling the symptoms and the anxiety of it all.

I know I shouldn't be frustrated, and I should worry about anything, that it will happen when it is supposed to, but it is hard to watch all my friends and family having babies, even when they aren't ready, weren't trying, and shouldn't have kids (most of my friends can barely take care of themselves, let alone another person)...